Gym time and reconnecting

Went to the gym again today. I walked for 15 minutes but I somehow fucked up the treadmill computer halfway through so I dont know how far I walked. I know I was on a pace to beat my last distance though. I also biked half a mile before my right leg started cramping. That sort of sucked, but I knew I was a little dehydrated going in so it wasnt totally unexpected. I bought a big bottle of water for $1 and went to sit in the sauna. I love the sauna, its hot as fuck in there and warms me all the way through to my core. Sure, I sweat like Mike Tyson at a spelling bee, but thats the point. I did make one mistake though. I figured I was warm enough all the way through and tried to be a badass by not wearing my heavy coat out to the truck when I left. I just had on my hoodie and sweatpants. By the time I got halfway to the truck I was shivering and calling myself a dumbass. But I lived and I feel pretty damn good right now. I also sat the tanning bed for 7 minutes. 5 minutes didnt warm me up enough to start the workout and 10 burned me so I have settled on 7 for now to start with.

Also had a good day building up the connection with Amy. We have been feeling sort of disconnected and lonely lately and we had some good intimate time today and a lot of talk and it helped a lot. Hopefully we can keep going and continue to build the connection. Friday we go to dinner at the new guy friends house, I am looking forward to that a lot.

So far this has been a very middle of the road week, I was depressed as fuck Monday and Tuesday and today it lifted nicely. Hopefully it continues to lift and I can get back to some sort of normal, especially since I now have 90 days worth of all of my meds and am religiously trying to take them as scheduled. Hopefully it starts to warm up in a few weeks and maybe I can stop being cold all the time and start feeling better more often.

I hate winter...