Did you ever look at something nine times and it made perfect sense and then you took a tenth look and had to wonder how a human being that could walk upright was so stupid as to think that what you were looking at would work/work out/go the way you saw it going?
Thats been happening to me a lot lately, and I cant quite figure out why. I have an IQ of over 180, but when it comes to life in general lately I am as dumb as a bag of hammers. I keep missing the obvious and not thinking about things the way I should and it isnt the tenth time looking that it hits me, its only after the shit has hit the fan and feelings are hurt, butts are hurt or there is more stress in life than there needs to be.
This, in the words of the Dude, will not stand. I havent a clue what is going on inside my head, what sort of short circuit has happened, what block there is that is affecting my ability to communicate and function in a loving relationship but whatever it is, its got to go. There is way too much difficulty and stress going on and way too many hurt feelings and way too much sadness for this to be allowed.
Im better than this. WE are better than this. Fuck this noise. I am reminded of a Klingon proverb: “meQtaHbogh qachDaq Suv qoH neH” literally translated as “Only a fool fights in a burning house”. No more fighting as the house burns.
No more
